Something that needs to be said..

Its been a while since i blogged last. But I have got something ive been wanting to blog about for quite sometime, i've just not done it. But now i Just can't take it anymore.

What is the Deal with People Updating their facebook and twitter status's with COMPLAINTS AND WHINING. ?? I mean i see stuff like.. the drive thru is taking so long..FML...or Just randomly little things that everyone is like screw my life, i hate my life. This or that pisses me off.

Well you know what ticks me off...How much facebook nowadays has turned into WHINEBOOK. I have been on facebook since 2005, long before they even had the status updates. Way before twitter was ever thought of. Then i got into the whole updating your status and seeing what others were up to. Very rarely did people complain...Now? i would say 90% of peoples status updates are whining about something. i have so much homework.....okay so why are you wasting time putting that on facebook instead of doing your homework? I am so sick ..throwing up so much...okay well why arent you in bed resting? Not only do most people post it once..but usually within 3 or 4 hours. They talk about the same ISSUE!

If you are my friend on facebook or twitter, you know that i update my status quite frequently. Most of my status's contain either what i am doing, or if football is on, i constantly do post things about different plays that go on. IFF...IFF ...If i post anything that is negative you will never see me say Screw my life, FML, or whatever crap. THINGS ARE NOT THAT BAD!!!!! Okay look i have been through a lot of stuff in my life. Things ALWAYS get brighter..I have been through a parental divorce, growing up in poverty, that first big breakup, health issues, getting laid off, unplanned pregancy(which the baby is the biggest blessing ever by the way =)....and for goodness sakes...I work retail so i have had to deal with peoples crap for nearly 4 yrs now.., i have been through it all. But life is way to valuable. If you want to say something thats obvious like..Road Construction stinks!..I dont have a problem with that..but to say that "road constration **** stinks, why does this always have to happen to me, my life sucks..yadda yadda.." Ill be honest...I do not want to read that. When i read facebook status updates, it seems like the are always big downers. Kinda puts you in a bad mood. Because in my head im just like..is it really that bad?? seriously? I mean there is always that one person that has it so worse than you. Should road Construction tick you off so much that you have to go on a cussing tangent on your status update? What about the guy that may have a family of 5, gets hit by a drunk driver and is in critical condition. ...knowing that...how big really are your problems now?

Maybe i just need to take people off my friends list that always update with negative status updates? I dont know. All i know is, i hate reading everyones status updates that are so nnegative. God has blessed us with each breath, and with a life worth living. Will you had bad days ? Yes...I have them too. Things don't go your way or like you planned. Do i get upset and ticked off? yes...would i post "i hate road construction"? Yes, probably have at some point. But i will never EVER go off the deep in and post FML, my life sucks because of this or that. LIFE IS NOT THAT BAD. It has its ups and downs, BUT IT IS NOT THAT BAD. Life goes goood in those ups...in those downs...you can control if you stay postive or negative..human nature is to be negative, but how much better of a place would this be if everyone always stayed postive and realized that hey, its really not that bad?

I realize, that i am "whining" in this blog. And it could contradict what i say. But this is to prove the point. I know im not the only one that feels this way.

I challenge everyone that reads this to put one postive thing on my facbeook wall that is going on in your life, or leave a comment on the blog. Because i would love to see some of the positive stuff that is going on in everyone's life.

Welp, Im peacing out for now! Night all!

Jon

Busy Busy Busy

God has been doing some good things in my life lately. Hmm where do I start? Well as far as my job goes at T-mobile, business is finally starting to pick up. Ive only worked there since May 15th, and for the month of July i lead my store in Total Features. And so far for this month of august(only a few days left) I'm leading my store in total number of activations/new customers. Which this is nice. Working at circuit city for 3 years definetly helped me understand sales so that i could step right in to the job and be on top of the board. Jobs been great. We had a guy put his 2 weeks in, so I have been working as a part timer but getting 35-40 hrs for the whole month of august which is definetly nice. I am loving the hours, but at the same time im finding it hard to find the time that i want to spend with raegan and amber. I basically worked 10 out of a 11 days in a row, i had 3 days off, and right now im currently in the mid of working another 7 days in a row. Thats rough when you got a family, and need to find the time to spend with them. So im happy im getting all these hours and stuff, but at the same time im trying to find something where i know i will have the same days off each week, and something that im not working like 10 days in a row with a few days off and then back to the same thing over again. We'll see what happens, and see where God takes me. Ive been applying to a ton of places, actually pretty much since i got the job, just to see if i could better myself, but we'll see.

In other news, Amber and I have started our "hobby" photography sessions on the side. We at the moment are just taking like senior, engagement, couples, familys, and other types of pictures on the side. I have been working on a blog and a website. Ordered us some business cards, and we have been getting the ball rolling..We've actually all ready had one photo shoot in terre haute, and it went great! We are in the process of doing the editing on the pictures, but so far everything turned out great! We are naming ourselves "Jon & Amber Furtography". I came up with the name because i thought it was clever! Our last names are Furry, so why not take Fur and tography and put them together. Instead of PHotography, its Furtography. ITs catchy and it will catch peoples eyes and ears. We are excited, things are picking up for it. After we did the one senior session. We have had several people contact us to set up appointments with them. Amber and I would love to hav ethis end up being like our full time jobs. Where we would do all sorts of photography and run our own business. We're startin small and seeing where God will take us! In the meantime, go check out our blog: www.jafurtography.blogspot.com

Hmm what else? My Baby girl is so beautiful. SHe is truely a blessing. She makes my heart melt everytime, she smiles and everything. I hope i can just help her to devlope into a Godly woman. I am enjoying all the time that i can get to spend with her beacuse she is growing so dang fast!

Football is about to start, whcih im stoked about! GO COLTS! and...Halo 3 ODST is being released in Sept.! I am so excited for yet another amazing halo video game!

Hmm well that is all for now, im off! Gotta work open to close tomorrow..

L8R!

Jon

Time Flies on by...Taking things for granted

So i have been thinking a lot this past week about tons of things, but i just come to realize to not beat myself up on stuff. I really want so much for my wife and baby girl that sometimes i stress myself out that i dont do enough for them. I wish i could build them a house or a place to go hide when they need to hide or play when they need to play. I think this is just an internal struggle i will always try to defeat to support my family. I am so blessed with everything, but sometimes i get wrapped up in so much stress that i forget to sit back and realize actually how great it is to breathe another moment with teh women in my life. Ive learned that not to take it for granted as it can be taken away at any moment. I hate getting down or feeling as though i dont do enough ..or nothing i do is helping out or right. Ive been mixed with those emotions as well as looking on facebook at some of my old friends. Once again as i have before..reflecting how ...how the times have changed. Its crazy. Time goes so fast, and ive noticed i thought that before having a baby time flew, but i cant seem to grasp the concept of time since Raegan has been here. I mean shoot shes all ready a month old. I can't beleive that. I was looking at some old pictures and i cant get over where everyone is at now ...and how each month, day and second built everyone into the person we are today. People have "grown up" and moved away from terre haute, and things are just changing. God has blessed me with a great group of people, and i hope he continues to pour out blessings on everyone. Its an encouragment seeing people i grew up with or remember hanging out with blossom into mature adults. Its a blessing...also it makes me feel old lol. I Hope i can continue to turn into a great father and husband. I fail every day but pray every day that God gives me the wisdom and power to keep going on. Having a baby girl makes me want to strive to be her superhero...Im beginning to cry as i type this, so this is my cue to head to bed. I love my God, I love my Wife, I love my Raegan. God is so good to me, why do i always just take it for granted?

Raegan Chloe is here!! June 9, 2009

It is crazy to think that i was so frustrated one year ago with life that it was just overwhelming. It seems just like yesturday i remember feeling run dry and tired..and to much routine. But man things have changed...Having a baby is the most amazing feeling to have. I am so scarred that i am not going to be a great dad, but im slowly learning, and ill be learning even when shes 25. Raegan has brought so much joy to my life its unexplainable. I really did think i had it all figured out...and what love is. But i had no clue...Love has been shown to me on June 9th 2009. It all started with the labor and pre birth. THe 12 hrs before my daughter was born was the hardest ours ive had in a long time. My wife was in so much pain...and nothing i could do about it. And for those husbands that truely love their wives, you know how much this feeling sucks. You feel like you are useless. And the whole helping my wife breath thru the birthing process, and just seeing the birth process, and the end result. It is just an overwhelming joy. It brought me and my wife closer, and now we have the best gift ever. Amber does a great job with her, but i feel like i still am struggling. Hopefully this will come second nature. I truely thought i knew what love was...and now its awhole new meaning and enlightenement to me.

I was talking to amber the other day and i was like sweetie do you realize my life went from 0 responsibilites to all that you can encounter in life in less than 3 years? In 2006, i was still living at home with my mother with no job or license. In the end of 2006 i got a license and a job at circuit city. Step one of .."growing up" In 2007, i move out on my own and pay my own rent and bills...and then i started dating Amber. 2008, i married the love of my life Amber. Within two years got a license, a job, moved out on my own, got married. And then in 2009, had a baby girl Raegan Chloe. So in the matter of less than 3 years ive some how accomplished to pick of all possible responsibilities of life...Husband and father. I am blessed to be where i am. I didnt expect to be 22 and married with a kid when i was in high school, but i sure as heck don't wish it were any different! Life has gone so fast in the last 3 years!

As far as goals and stuff going on lately, Being a father to Ragean is priority and will be forever now. Ive been working at T-mobile since may 15th. Love the job, hate the drive.. But honestly it depends on the day. The last week i saw quite the array of different sunsets and clouds...that reminded me of God's Uniqueness. Ive also been working on eating healthier so i can lower my blood pressure and just lose weight. I have noticed in the 4 days since ive started..eating healthier is hard, but once you do start, you realize how badly you were eating before..and when you eat those unhealthy foods..they arent as good as they use to be. Im beginning..to not like pop as much. I hadnt had pop for a week or so and then tonight i had a coke from mcdees because tomorrow we are starting a biggest loser within our household between all of us..so i was kinda eating the last big supper out..and i noticed after not having coke for a week, i really didnt like the taste of it. It wasnt bad..but i kept thinking..man how did i drink this all the time? So im working on getting in better shape, ive let it slide to long..and with the help of my family, and praying for God's strength i think that i can overcome this landslide.

I tell you i am just so much happier out of terre haute. Spiritually, Physically, Mentally. ANd honestly its not like we go out and do something in Indy every night. Yeah ...we have the option to(whcih at least having the option may be one reason why im happier here). And yes i do miss my family a lot, but this move was just for the better. Amber is happier and sees God at work again, and that makes me happy. We've got a few choices of awesome churches wevve been attending, which is helping spiritually get refocused. Terre Haute for us was just draining on so many subjects that it was bringing us down. Mix that in with the fact that there wasn't much to do there..and it was rough for us. I have really enjoyed getting close with amber's family and her brother and stuff. Her dad is a great example of what Jesus wants us to be. He does it all for the Lord too. and i apperciate them so much. It helps to have that type of influence in your life. Whcih i hope i can be to raegan and anyone that incounters me. I use to look at life as a mission field..in everything, then life thru some curve balls at me and i lost track of that, but i have been regaining it once again.

man im glad God didnt give up on me when i gave up on him......Just like raegan..theres sometimes you can't stop her crying..and she just cries her self to sleep...you have to as a father watch that...it hurts to see her crying and nothing i can do...but she can fall asleep because im there comforting her...sometimes you just gotta let them cry..thats probably what God thinks sometimes about us when we doubt him or "give up " on him.."sometimes they just gotta cry theres nothing i can do...but they will be able to sleep(get thru life) because they know i love them and hold them close to my heart".I love him, hes kind of a big deal....Raegan shows me God like i've never thought of God Before...

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord

So i yet again haven't blogged for a long time, but my wife insist that i make a habit of it. We'll see :-P. Life is good, i have been unemployed since the beginning of march, but life has never been better! I know that losing the job was what i needed, i am so much happier now. We are living in Indy right now, right near avon. We moved in with amber's parents, and honestly it has been such a blessing, i love her family they are the greatest. Her dad is one of few people/men, that i feel like actually lives the way that Jesus intended christians to live. He has been a great example and i now see what i missed out on as a child. So i am cherishing these times we are living with them and learning something new every day.

Well within hte last few months ive unloaded and loaded probably about 10 trucks worth of moving stuff. We got everyone moved into this nice new relaxing house and things are going great. We just got plugged into a church of 4,000 Plus. And i can say for the first time in a year and a half im beginning to focus on God totally with my heart and mind. I see the beauty in things again, and im not constantly looking negatively at stuff. I knew he would bring me from the deep deep valley that i was in, and he delivered me. I kept praying that lats year and a half,...and waiting..and finally redemption. "Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord"

In about 3 weeks or less, honestly any time now. I WILL BE A DAD! I am sccccccaaaaarrrreed to death, but so excited and i pray for my baby every day. I hope that i can be a great dad. That is something i worry about since i never had a physical father really there at all. We are going to name her Raegan Chloe Furry, Raegan means spiritual blessing/strength...we named her that because in this last year life has been really really rough, but its only by God's Strength we made it thru and we wanted a name that would remind us to always stay spiritually strong when times get rough.

I got a job this week at TMobile as a sales rep, which will pay me more hourly than i made at circuit city plus commission. I am excited and thrilled for the oppurtunity. The only thing negative i can forsee out of this job, would be the 45 MIn Drive there and 45 min drive back, but maybe that will be my time to focus on the Lord and pray more often. God knows what hes doing so we shall see.

God is good, and if you are going through anything..KNOW..he is there and he loves you...I dont understand...why he lets things happen sometimes, but he will be pull you up...and you will be stronger because of it. Ive been through divorce, no father, losing a job, unplanned pregnancies, ive been through it all. BUT EVERY time...even when i doubt and dont think he will....he holds me in his arms and he takes care of me EVERY TIME..Sometimes it takes 30 seconds..Sometimes it takes 30 days..or 3 years. But he takes care of me, and he will take care of you.

OUttie 9,000

6 Months later....

It sure has been awhile since ive blogged. Half a year?...thats crazy that its been that long, it seems just like yesturday when i typed some blogs up. Its crazy the older that you do get, the faster time does seem to go.

6 Months later, and not really a whole lot has changed in some areas and in others big surprises. Like i have a child on the way. A baby girl actually, we just found that out this past tuesday. Its crazy amber is just over 5 months pregnant. I all ready feel like i dont have time to really do much, but that is going to intesify times 20 in 4 months. I am excited though, i really am. I've been run down with life and i am ready for a life changing experience. I think God gives us the gift of a family so that it can rejuvenate us of our youth. I miss being young. No bills, no worries, no hassle. Life was simple. I've tried to live the same way, but it just doesn't work out. Somehow life has its way of stressing you out. You feel like you've got everything planned out and finally it just crumbles. I know a lot of people say its just God is testing you and wanting you to take a leap of faith, but i am seriously done with these tests! I hate being so young and all ready getting so jerked around in life ...and not being able to stay positive.It always got me when an elder couple were always so negative ..just because life has taken their toll...I said id never be like that...but i am sure on my way.

So in the next few days(tomorrow probably) I will find out if for the first time in 2 and a half years if i will be out of a job. Circuit city is being put up in an auction, and if we don't get a buyer then we must begin to liquidate and go out of business. I really don't know what is going to happen, but last friday when i clocked in for my shift and found out that we had to have somethign done before the 16th or we would be going out of business. It was devestating. I am so sick of having the worst turn of events in life. I swear....amber and I have been thru so much together its not even funny. Its almost like what else could go wrong....or whats next? ....She loses her job ...(and well yeah dont get me started on that one)...right before we get married. Then on our wedding day ...we literally swam to it pretty much in the flood...and it didnt go nearly as planned as we wanted it to. And now...with a Kid on the way...I have a big chance that in two days ill know if i will have a job or not...C"MON! are you kidding me?!?! I am sick of it.....throw me a bone here.

So i've been frustrated and...just thinking ..a lot..whats the point? If nothing ever works in life then why even try some times. Its frustrating. I was scared to death to be a father...but now im scared to death that ...im probably losing my job and nothing i could control...and now im goin to be a father. I wish that, i had all the money in the world .....to just help anyone that needed money just because. I wish i had a job in the world that ....i didnt have to worry about if the company would be here or not from month to month. Really theres no job that is secure. I just wish i had no worries ....so that it would block me from enjoying my life again. I still have hope though. Hope is on its way...and she doesnt have a name yet, we're disucssing that still, but hope is on the way. Hope for fun family together...no matter what the financial situation..God will take care of us...Hope for a future with amber and my baby girl on the way.

So no matter what i find out when i clock into work in the morning...whether i have a job or whether i find out when the company is closing down...no matter which it is, i still have hope, and i still have a rejuvenating life experience waiting for me down the road. God will take care of me and my family. Even though most things in life arent for sure, i know thats one thing that is for sure.

Well heres to another 6 months...or whenever i blog next..

Ive Paid my Dues

Well this is different, im at home off from work and amber went in at 3. I've worked well over 50 hrs this week and finally get the do nothing today, its great. Got to love back to school time of the year. Busy as heck, and we are short staffed. It was exactly like this last year as well. Really short staffed and really busy. Due to recent events at work there is a full time spot open over in HE which is on a bonus plan unlike where i am now. So i could be making an additional $500-1000 a month depending on how well i would meet budgets. There is supposedly an interview process, but I know i won't get the position beacuse even though im top in sells and bust my butt, you have to really kiss you know what. Basically heres the whole story summed up. Ive worked here almost 2 yrs and anytime i apply to get moved up, something always ends up screwing me over. Ive more than paid my dues to that place, but i know i wont get rewarded. I never get any of the job promotions. Seems as if I have to work my butt off to get anything where as other people are handed stuff left and right. Not gonna lie it makes me jealous, sometimes i wish i had things easy like other people. My Dad never has been existent so ive never had help from him, and my mom has had it rough and had to raise me and my sister and had not a lot of money to help out. So everything that I own I've busted my butt for. It sucks though because i work any where from 37-45 hrs a week and bust my butt, try to do my job to the best of my ability and still don't have enough to help pay off the student loans and stuff. Im not a slacker either i do my job right and go 110%, anyone who really knows me..knows that when it comes to work i dont slack. I know i slack at cleanin up the house and chores and stuff, Amber doesnt enjoy that. Ive helped a lot more though since we got married. I Just wish that something would swing me and ambers way ..but that never happens.


Right now im in the stage of life where ..everyday i wake up its just frustrating to have to go to work literally everyday and not have it mount to a lot. As soon as i get off work, typically working an all day shift like 11-11 or 9:45 to 7 or 8...you get home and then ...no one ever wants to hang out late, and theres nothin to do in Terre Haute so you just relax a little and then go to bed and do it all over again. Its very depressing and frustrating. Last week, I had a few friends over, but they were all gone by midnight. That just kinda stunk because i was looking to just hang out on end, and everyone used the "i gotta go to work" or "im tired". It was discouraging, when i work too, and im busy too, but i wanted to hang out and everyone just left. I had to work the next day as well even....9:45 to 9 ...but i was willing to hang out til 2 or 3 or whatever. The night was a blast don't get me wrong.I just hate the fact that like i said I get up and go to work every day and work pretty much an all day shift then come home and no one is willing to hang out like we use to. We had so many long nights at the BCM house or out at Matt's. I mean its not like im expecting every night for us to all hang out and every night for us to all stay up until 4 and then go to work at 6 or 7 or whatever time it is we have to go in. Just occasinally, stay up late...i remember a lot of the times in the BCM house or out at matt's parents house we got to the point where ...yeah there wasnt a lot to talk about, but it was just the mere fact we were hanging out and building the friendships. They always joke that when you get married life changes and no more freedom. Everyone got married, or got engaged, or got a job and now apparently we are all to old to hang out late lol. All im saying is im up for hanging out whenver and however late.


Im Burn out, and fed up with terre haute because theres nothing to do.