God's Will or My Will?

Will-tacular!

What exactly is God's will any way? Is it that i mission out to africa and help others. Or is it simple just be a good husband and father to my family. Can i ever know what God wants me to do, or am i going to spend the rest of my life wandering in a dark room with my hands in front of me trying to feel a wall to know where i am at. I feel like thats how i am lately. Like someone has shut off the lights and I have my hands in front of me looking for a safe place but with very little guidance. I try to do everything myself instead of asking someone to just turn the lights back on. Will we ever really know what God wants us to do or do we just spend time doing what we know makes us feel good or happy. Its so hard to discern what God wants but yet so easy to know exactly what the heck i want. I mean obviously God wants us to talk to him and pray to him. Meditate on him all thru-out the day, but beyond that it never clearly says in the bible that Jon Furry Shall be a Telemarketer that sells used tissues and will make a millions but donate most of it to missions work. Obviously i went crazy with that, but quite honestly...that could be God's Will and i dont even know it yet. Oh and another brainbuster, just because things happen the way they do doesn't always mean that it was God's will. Most things are God's will, but there are somethings that were/are caused by a man's free will. Throw that into the mix and what do you have? A whole bunch of confusion. The reason i am thinking about all this and actually bloggin about it, is i want to obviously follow God's will and i have a job oppurtunity with a little bit of a raise that will get me out of Circuit City, but i don't know if God wants to lead me there or not. Vice versa i dont know if i am wanting to be selfish to take the job and leave behind what i have done at ccity. Or am i being set in my ways and not allowing God to change something in my life. Is it God's will to go to this new job, or is it his will to have me stay at ccity. I have not the slightest clue, and for the first time in my life i will have to say this is one of the biggest/toughest decisions i have ever had to make. Its in times like these that you wish God had the Book of Jon Furry out on the table and you could read word for word what he wants me to do in this lifetime. But then again if he had the story written out for me to act whats the point in giving me the choice to choose his way or my way? Just a some food for thought, its 2:30 AM and i am tired and confused at life right now.