Ive Paid my Dues

Well this is different, im at home off from work and amber went in at 3. I've worked well over 50 hrs this week and finally get the do nothing today, its great. Got to love back to school time of the year. Busy as heck, and we are short staffed. It was exactly like this last year as well. Really short staffed and really busy. Due to recent events at work there is a full time spot open over in HE which is on a bonus plan unlike where i am now. So i could be making an additional $500-1000 a month depending on how well i would meet budgets. There is supposedly an interview process, but I know i won't get the position beacuse even though im top in sells and bust my butt, you have to really kiss you know what. Basically heres the whole story summed up. Ive worked here almost 2 yrs and anytime i apply to get moved up, something always ends up screwing me over. Ive more than paid my dues to that place, but i know i wont get rewarded. I never get any of the job promotions. Seems as if I have to work my butt off to get anything where as other people are handed stuff left and right. Not gonna lie it makes me jealous, sometimes i wish i had things easy like other people. My Dad never has been existent so ive never had help from him, and my mom has had it rough and had to raise me and my sister and had not a lot of money to help out. So everything that I own I've busted my butt for. It sucks though because i work any where from 37-45 hrs a week and bust my butt, try to do my job to the best of my ability and still don't have enough to help pay off the student loans and stuff. Im not a slacker either i do my job right and go 110%, anyone who really knows me..knows that when it comes to work i dont slack. I know i slack at cleanin up the house and chores and stuff, Amber doesnt enjoy that. Ive helped a lot more though since we got married. I Just wish that something would swing me and ambers way ..but that never happens.


Right now im in the stage of life where ..everyday i wake up its just frustrating to have to go to work literally everyday and not have it mount to a lot. As soon as i get off work, typically working an all day shift like 11-11 or 9:45 to 7 or 8...you get home and then ...no one ever wants to hang out late, and theres nothin to do in Terre Haute so you just relax a little and then go to bed and do it all over again. Its very depressing and frustrating. Last week, I had a few friends over, but they were all gone by midnight. That just kinda stunk because i was looking to just hang out on end, and everyone used the "i gotta go to work" or "im tired". It was discouraging, when i work too, and im busy too, but i wanted to hang out and everyone just left. I had to work the next day as well even....9:45 to 9 ...but i was willing to hang out til 2 or 3 or whatever. The night was a blast don't get me wrong.I just hate the fact that like i said I get up and go to work every day and work pretty much an all day shift then come home and no one is willing to hang out like we use to. We had so many long nights at the BCM house or out at Matt's. I mean its not like im expecting every night for us to all hang out and every night for us to all stay up until 4 and then go to work at 6 or 7 or whatever time it is we have to go in. Just occasinally, stay up late...i remember a lot of the times in the BCM house or out at matt's parents house we got to the point where ...yeah there wasnt a lot to talk about, but it was just the mere fact we were hanging out and building the friendships. They always joke that when you get married life changes and no more freedom. Everyone got married, or got engaged, or got a job and now apparently we are all to old to hang out late lol. All im saying is im up for hanging out whenver and however late.


Im Burn out, and fed up with terre haute because theres nothing to do.